You see, I'd actually like to use my blog. I want to use it as more of a journal of my experiences rather than a place for my angry rants, which is what it was before. And why do I need to journal my experiences you ask? Well, I am on a mission of self improvement. I need support from anywhere I can get it, and the internet is the best place to find support. I don't always feel like I get support from the people that are most important to me. I feel like other people think I have my priorities confused. They don't understand why certain things are more important to me than others. Let me map it out:
Priority No. 1: Weight Loss
My girlfriend, Gin, encouraged me to join Weight Watchers with her. I'm fairly certain this is one of the best choices I have made for my life. I started out 60 pounds overweight. Technically, that is considered obese! I hated how I looked in the mirror. I hated how my clothes fit. I felt like everyone was staring at me and laughing.
I'm very happy to say that I have lost 13 pounds. And I hope to lose at least 47 more. This is not going to be easy. I plan to spend an entire year in Weight Watchers. I do not want to give up, and I will not let this conquer me. I am going to be a babe and wear a bikini on the beach someday!
This priority requires that I spend time at the gym, and spend time thinking about, and cooking good food for myself. I can just grab a slice of pizza and eat on the go.
Priority No.2: My Relationship
I have to nurture my relationship with my boyfriend, David. To do this, I have to spend time with him. We live together, but I never really feel like we're spending quality time together. I wish we could lay in bed at night and talk about stuff, but I fall asleep to fast. I wish we could get up and make breakfast together but I get up at 6, and he gets up 9. Oftentimes I feel like we're just room-mates, and that's totally lame. He does go to the gym with me, and thats nice. It just isn't enough though.
Priority No. 3: School
I have to get good grades so that I can finish my masters by spring 2011. I have found that working hard and getting good grades makes me feel really awesome! I didn't get good grades in my undergraduate degree, and I feel like I have something to prove. I want to graduate magna cum-laude and I'm on the right track. I want those gold cords!
Priority No. 4: Other Friends
This may sound harsh, but I just don't have time for them right now. They treat me like crap anyways, but that's a subject to blog about some other day.
My professors and other friends are not happy about the order of my priorities, but I have to make myself happy. I can not function when I'm unhappy, and I treat my boyfriend like crap.
I think this will have to be a good introduction for now. I will have a lot to say and talk about in the coming months. See you there.
